I always feel sad at funerals, knowing that my time to be with that person here on earth is at a standstill. This funeral was especially hard.
I left on my mission after MaryLou died, and Mo married while I was gone. I got home from my mission, got married within the year and began having children the year after that. Sometimes I would see him when we were in town visiting my parents. A couple years ago I realized I had neglected an important relationship so I began sending Christmas cards.
Mo became unresponsive after a medical procedure and I panicked, knowing that I should have been more a part of his life. But then I heard that he had gotten better and was in rehab. I had a sigh of relief as I thought that I could have another chance of reaching out to he and his wife Barbara. Then very shortly thereafter I received the call that he had passed away.
At his funeral today I heard so many things about him that I never knew. Things I should have known. Things that would have blessed my life and made me a better person if I had been a part of Mo's life as his granddaughter.
Sadly I missed my chance. But today is a day to remember that there is always something I can can do better, a person I can love more, serve more, make more a part of my life. So next time you think; I don't have time to stop and say hi, or I am too busy to send a letter or make a call, I have a hard time getting together with so-and-so because of xyz...remember a time will come when you realize that time is up. That person has moved on and you missed out on being a part of their life and they yours. Seize the day. And from the advice of Mo as he has nearing the "Hallelujah Side," :
"Volunteer
and
Move"
2 comments:
thank you for that beautiful message Lauren.
You are welcome! I recognize that that there are some situations where this message does not apply. I am certainly not going to rekindle a relationship with my relative who did something quite hurtful and wrong just to open that wound to be hurt again, but in general I think it is a good message to apply.
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